Sometimes I cry

I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️

Sometimes I cry

I miss you so much

If only I could feel your touch once again

I cry and cry

I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment

You left such a hole in my heart ♥️

That no one can fill like you

You were the best you always cared

For me from birth to the day you left.

Reflections of Love/CD💕❤️♥️

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Blog Reflection

I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.

I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.

I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.

I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.

Reflections of Love/CD ❤️💜😊

My Mom 💕💜

This is the hardest post I have ever had to write. I started this blog 5 years ago when my mom was diagnosed with dementia and I started it to try and cope with it and to help others who might be going through the same thing. Well Saturday May 23, 2020 my moms journey with dementia ended. I’m happy she’s free again and she’s my my dad. But I miss her so. Because of the virus we can’t have a service for her to later. But I’m trying to make the best of it. I will continue this blog I really like writing and sharing. I wrote this poem just a few days before my mom passed away. I hope you like it and have a wonderful day! 😊

How can I say goodbye to the person

Who gave life to me my mother, my friend

My help my protector

The person who has been with me my entire life from birth to now.

I don’t want to say Goodbye mom I love you so much I wish I could feel your sweet touch again if only for a moment.

But I know you have to go so I’m not going to stop you But I will miss you so much and I will never forget you and you will always be in my heart

And I know one day I will see you again

Til that time make sure you tell dad I love him too and miss him and love him too !

Till we meet again My Sweet Mama! 💜

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Quitting

I wrote this poem a few years ago and I thought I would share it today with all of you!  Sometimes we feel like giving up but we have to keep going and trying.  I hope you have a great day!

I’m not quitting

I’m going to run

this race to the

finish!

With Gods help I’m

going to make it!

I’ve had some hard times

and things that come against me

but that will only make me

stronger in the end.

God has put a special gift inside

of me and I’m going to

use it for his glory.

I won’t take any less anymore.

For greater is he that is in

me than he that is in the world.

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Try

Sometimes we try so hard and it feels like we hit a brick wall but we make it through. Right now it feels like I’m doing that. My mom is not doing to good and it’s very frustrating. We took her to the doctor and she didn’t remember my name which is very hard to take in and she is getting progressively worse Day by day. Please can you please just pray for strength for my dad and my family ! I would appreciate it very much! I know God is in control but it’s very hard. I wrote this poem have a great day!😊

I try and try

And it ain’t no lie.

I wish it was easier

Sometimes.

It’s a uphill battle

And it makes me

Scream and shout!

All these things

Come against me

I just want to be

Set free from

All this!

Stress and feel

Like I’m

Truly blessed

Somehow!?❤️😊

Copyright: Reflections of Love/CD 😊❤️

Feeling stuck

Yesterday I went to my parents house like I do every day and I got stuck in their driveway in the snow.  It got me very frustrated to say the least.  It took a while but two neighbors came out and helped me get out.  I think that is some what  like our lives.  We keep spinning our tires just like a car and we feel like we can’t go nowhere.  At least that’s the way I feel sometimes.  It gets to be to much and we just give up.  But if we keep going there will be a way out!  I wrote this poem I hope this blog is helping someone out there.  It helps me by writing.  Have a awesome day!😊🌼

Ever feel like

Your stuck in a rut?

And you can’t get

Out?

You just keep spinning

And spinning

Around and around!

You try and try and

You don’t understand

All of his plan

That he has

In store

For you!

If you just trust in

Him!

He will

Make a way

For you

To get you

Through!🌼😊

Copyright:  Reflections of Love/CD🌼😀

 

Help me

I wrote this poem a while ago. Sometimes you just don’t feel good and you want relief somewhere. I hope this helps someone out there who is struggling. I know we all need support sometimes. I know God knows and he cares for us. ❤️ Have a wonderful day!

Help me

Help me

I feel like I’m falling

And I can’t make it

Out!

I’m scared and I

Don’t know why?

Please I need your help

So much!

I can’t make it

Without you!

I need to relax if only

For a while so I can

Smile again!

It’s been so long but

I need to be strong

In you!

But what do I do?

But trust fully

In you

When I’m feeling

Nothing but

Blue!

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New Day 

I wrote this poem. I hope you like it.  Have a wonderful day. 😊

Everyday is a brand new

Way to take

What is around you

And make it

Something good.

In the birds that

Sing their song.

In the blue skies

And the flowers

That bloom.

Or the rain drops

That you hear tapping

On the window.  And the

Rainbow

With all its many

Colors!

It’s a way we know that

God is with us and

We know he cares

So much

For us!😊🌈

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The road

We all face thing that are hard sometimes.  But we don’t face them alone.  I wrote this poem I hope it helps someone out there who is struggling! Have a fantastic day!🌼😊

When the road

You travel seems

So up hill

When you feel

Like you

Have no relief!

And all you have

Is grief, grief, grief!

Lean on to me

And don’t give up!

Just keep going forward!

Cuz soon it will be changing!

If you just hang on!

On!😊🌼

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Wish

I wrote this poem.  My mom is doing ok and I’m her personal aide now.  I’m glad I’m able to help her but it’s a lot to take in sometimes. Have a wonderful day!😊

I wish there

Was something I

Could do for her!

All of these tests

All of these visits!

It’s so much to bare!

I care so much

For her the

Mother who gave

Birth to me!

Sometimes I just wish

She would be set free

From all of this disease!

It hurts more than you

Can know!

To see her cry with tears

Falling down her face!

You just want to run away

And not have to bear this

Anymore!

But what can I do?

I do not know!

I wish I did!

Wish!🌼

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