Blog Reflection

I wanted to write to you to say I’ve currently been very busy looking for a job. I’m finding it’s a little harder when you get older. As Mother day approaches I think about my mom and it’s hard here not being here esp on Mothers Day. I’m thankful I had her all the years I did but it’s just not the same. I can’t believe it will be two years next month that my moms been gone. Oh how I miss her so. I miss not being able to share with her. I have her pictures that I can look at but I miss her voice and the comfort you feel just being with your mom. It’s a bond so special. There’s nothing like it. Dementia took a lot of years away from her. I would give anything to have all of that back. Even though it was very hard sometimes I just cherish the memories and all the time I had to spend with my mom and dad.

My dad was a trooper through it all with my mom. He never complained about any of it and I know it was very hard on him too but he never let it bother him. He took it all in stride everyday watching my mom disappear every day. He did break down one day when my mom looked at him and she said who are you . She didn’t recognize him and this just broke his heart. My dad cried that day and I felt so bad. He never got upset with her either she would do some bizarre things sometime but it never bothered him. He would just agree with her and let her be. To be honest he did better than me cuz sometimes I would get upset with her. But not him. He would just go with it. I give my dad a lot of credit for that.

I guess I just need to cherish those special times. Even though through dementia you can make it through.

I guess I just wanted to share. Have a good day and enjoy every minute of it. 😊❤️

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Heaven

I wrote this post a few days ago. My mom and dad are both gone now and I miss them everyday. It’s very hard and I struggle with it. I know they are better off now but I miss them so much. Some day I will see them again and it will be a joyous reunion. I hope you like this poem because I am trying to continue with this blog and try to write my best. Have a great day and enjoy every minute of it.

Dear Jesus

Please I hope

The first thing

I see when I get to Heaven

Is my mom and dad

I miss them so much

They were the best parents

Anyone could have

I wish they were here with me

They loved me so much and I did the same

And I pray you will take care of them

It hurts so much and it never goes away

I miss them every single day. I can’t

Believe they are not here anymore.

My dear sweet mom and dad.

See you again someday.

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Guardian Angel

My mom had dementia and I took care of her for 4 years. I don’t regret that at all but sometimes it did get over whelming. I miss her so much now. I wrote this poem back in 2019 and I thought I would share it.

Sometimes I feel

Like my moms

Guardian Angel

I was sent here

To take care of her in

Her time of need.

I don’t have wings to fly

But I’m there for her

Whenever

She needs it

I wouldn’t want it any other way

I would do it all over again

And be my mom’s Guardian

Angel.

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My moms Wallet

My moms wallet
I still have my moms wallet and her purse. It’s amazing to me that this would bring so much comfort to me. When I’m down I grab my moms wallet and hold it tight. I remember back when she had dementia she would sometimes go through her purse and pull out her wallet and name off everything g that was in there. She would say I have my social security card and this card and that cuz she couldn’t remember. And to be honest it used to drive my kind of nuts but now that I think k back I would give anything to have my mom do that. It’s so funny now that she’s gone these things bring comfort to my very soul. I guess we should all just soak up every minute that we have with somebody. Who would of thought that my moms wallet would of done that to me. I wish now I would of written little things that she did even with dementia it would of given my comfort now and forever. If only I knew. (August 22, 2021)

Been a while

I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy working my new job and preparing for the Holidays. I can’t believe it’s been 7 months since my mom passed away. I miss her so much. It’s especially hard this year for me because this is the first year without my parents. I miss them so much and I can hardly believe it. It’s a day to day struggle but I’ve been doing fairly well. I want to continue writing my blog. I think that is what my mom and dad would want. I want to continue this journey.

I hope you will still continue to read my blog. I want to help other people who might be dealing with people with dementia and Alzheimer’s and who struggle losing their parents. So maybe I can write again and share my heart and maybe along the way help someone. I hope to write more and I hope I can share with all of you.

Happy Holidays

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Try

Sometimes we try so hard and it feels like we hit a brick wall but we make it through. Right now it feels like I’m doing that. My mom is not doing to good and it’s very frustrating. We took her to the doctor and she didn’t remember my name which is very hard to take in and she is getting progressively worse Day by day. Please can you please just pray for strength for my dad and my family ! I would appreciate it very much! I know God is in control but it’s very hard. I wrote this poem have a great day!😊

I try and try

And it ain’t no lie.

I wish it was easier

Sometimes.

It’s a uphill battle

And it makes me

Scream and shout!

All these things

Come against me

I just want to be

Set free from

All this!

Stress and feel

Like I’m

Truly blessed

Somehow!?❤️😊

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Help

I wrote this poem.  Sometimes we feel so helpless and we don’t know what to do.  I’m sure you all can relate to this somehow.  I’ve been dealing with a lot right now and sometimes it’s so hard but I keep holding on! Have a super day!🌼😀

Help me

Help me

I feel like I’m falling

And I can’t make it

Out!

I’m scared and I don’t know

Why?

Please I need your help

So much!

I can’t make it without you!

I need to relax if

Only for a while so I

Can smile again!

It’s been so long but

I need to be strong

In you!

But what do

I do?

But trust fully

In you

When I’m feeling

Nothing but blue!

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Goodbye

I wrote this poem.  I started this blog because of my mom having dementia and Alzheimer’s and a great deal of my family has it too.  My mom is struggling right now and she has a great deal of challenges.   It helps me to write and share with all of you.  Have a great day!

How can I say goodbye

After all these years

And tears!

It’s so hard to understand

What your going through!

I love you so much mom

I would give anything to feel

Your touch again!

But if the Lord decides

He wants you

There will be nothing

That I can do!

I know it will end

Your pain!

And set you free!

But you won’t be

With me!

I will miss you

So much!

But I know I

Will feel your touch again

Sometime, somewhere!🌼😀

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Heart

How do I take all these pieces

Of my heart!

And put them back together

Again?

I do not know but

That makes me grow!

Into what you want me to be

So I can be free!

It’s so hard to understand

All that’s in your plan!

I can get carried away til I

Listen to what you have

To say!

To me!

You have the best

For me!

But sometimes I have to

Get on my knees!

And listen to your voice!

Because I really have no

Choice!

In your plan

For me!

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