I wanted to write to you to say I’ve currently been very busy looking for a job. I’m finding it’s a little harder when you get older. As Mother day approaches I think about my mom and it’s hard here not being here esp on Mothers Day. I’m thankful I had her all the years I did but it’s just not the same. I can’t believe it will be two years next month that my moms been gone. Oh how I miss her so. I miss not being able to share with her. I have her pictures that I can look at but I miss her voice and the comfort you feel just being with your mom. It’s a bond so special. There’s nothing like it. Dementia took a lot of years away from her. I would give anything to have all of that back. Even though it was very hard sometimes I just cherish the memories and all the time I had to spend with my mom and dad.
My dad was a trooper through it all with my mom. He never complained about any of it and I know it was very hard on him too but he never let it bother him. He took it all in stride everyday watching my mom disappear every day. He did break down one day when my mom looked at him and she said who are you . She didn’t recognize him and this just broke his heart. My dad cried that day and I felt so bad. He never got upset with her either she would do some bizarre things sometime but it never bothered him. He would just agree with her and let her be. To be honest he did better than me cuz sometimes I would get upset with her. But not him. He would just go with it. I give my dad a lot of credit for that.
I guess I just need to cherish those special times. Even though through dementia you can make it through.
I guess I just wanted to share. Have a good day and enjoy every minute of it. 😊❤️
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I know today I’ve been missing my mom and some of the tasty things she used to make. Like peppers and egg sandwiches and home made chicken soup. I never could make it just like hers believe me I have tried. She would sometimes make it and even when I wasn’t living home anymore she would put some in a container for me to have later. Boy I miss those days now. She also used to make something and she would potato chips on the top I don’t remember what it was.
I wish I could back in time and taste those dishes again. It’s funny how you think of things sometime. I miss my mom everyday there’s no one that could ever take her place. I wish I could talk to her again even with dementia. Just to hear her voice. She was such a special and wonderful person. I know I’m a lot like her in my ways. Just really missing my mom today.
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My mom had dementia and I took care of her for 4 years. I don’t regret that at all but sometimes it did get over whelming. I miss her so much now. I wrote this poem back in 2019 and I thought I would share it.
Sometimes I feel
Like my moms
I was sent here
To take care of her in
Her time of need.
I don’t have wings to fly
But I’m there for her
She needs it
I wouldn’t want it any other way
I would do it all over again
And be my mom’s Guardian
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I like to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. It truly is a special day to be thankful for all that God has given us. I’m thankful for my family and friends and for this blog to be able to share with all of you. It won’t be the same for me without both of my parents here with me but I try and do my best. I miss them so especially at the Holidays.
I’m just having the traditional Thanksgiving dinner like prob all of you.
I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Enjoy your family and friends and be thankful for everything.
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I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.
It’s been awhile
Since I seen your smile.
Oh I wish you were here
I miss you so much
I wish I could feel your touch once again
Its so hard living with out you here
So you could give me all of your cheer
But I know it wasn’t meant to be
At least not now
But someday we will meet
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I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.
I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.
I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.
I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.
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I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy working my new job and preparing for the Holidays. I can’t believe it’s been 7 months since my mom passed away. I miss her so much. It’s especially hard this year for me because this is the first year without my parents. I miss them so much and I can hardly believe it. It’s a day to day struggle but I’ve been doing fairly well. I want to continue writing my blog. I think that is what my mom and dad would want. I want to continue this journey.
I hope you will still continue to read my blog. I want to help other people who might be dealing with people with dementia and Alzheimer’s and who struggle losing their parents. So maybe I can write again and share my heart and maybe along the way help someone. I hope to write more and I hope I can share with all of you.
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I wrote this poem. I like writing it helps me to cope with the every day stresses that we all face. Have a wonderful day! 😊
Know what’s going
To happen on
Only you know
What we think
Even before we do
You put those words
In our hearts
Only you can
See inside of us!
Only you can do that
To show us the way
For us! 😊🌈
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I wrote this poem a few years ago and I thought I would share it today with all of you! Sometimes we feel like giving up but we have to keep going and trying. I hope you have a great day!
I’m not quitting
I’m going to run
this race to the
With Gods help I’m
going to make it!
I’ve had some hard times
and things that come against me
but that will only make me
stronger in the end.
God has put a special gift inside
of me and I’m going to
use it for his glory.
I won’t take any less anymore.
For greater is he that is in
me than he that is in the world.
I wrote this poem and I hope you like it. Sometimes time just goes so fast we can’t keep up. I wish it would slow down just a little. Have a awesome day!
Where do I go from
I got words to speak
feelings to be heard!
That just bring me to more tears!
Its amazing how crazy
time flies by!
Can’t even catch a breath!
and it’s another