This time of yearAlmost always brings me to tearsI love the fall and all the leaves butIt also brings back memories of days gone by. Some good some bad. I remember when I was a kid when fall came we would always rake leaves into a big pile and then jump into them. That was so much fun. Now I don’t see many kids doing that. It was just a simple thing but it was really fun. I remember going trick or treating with my cousins and going to my aunts house with the costumes that had the masks with the rubber bands. They would rip before you put them on. Then we would go all over town and the houses that had porch lights we would stop at. We got a lot of candy we would walk and walk down each street. We would go at least for a couple hours til our bags were full. Then I still remember my mom dumping all our candy checking to make sure it was alright to eat. That was so fun too. Now probably things are different. But back then we did all of that. I remember making my own Halloween costume to I was raggedy Andy and my friend was raggedy Ann. We made hair out of yarn and found old clothes to wear. That was special making a Halloween costume for yourself. Those days are gone too. Now everyone wants to go to Walmart or Spirit of Halloween to go purchase their costume. I love the fall so much I also remember when I was in youth group we used to have a hay ride every year. Some people from our church had a big wagon and they would put bails of hay on it and we would jump on top and ride around. What fun that was and then go back and have hot apple cider and some delicious donuts for a great treat. Those days are gone now. What do you remember when you were a kid in the Fall and Halloween? 🎃🎃🎃

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Missing my mom today

I know today I’ve been missing my mom and some of the tasty things she used to make. Like peppers and egg sandwiches and home made chicken soup. I never could make it just like hers believe me I have tried. She would sometimes make it and even when I wasn’t living home anymore she would put some in a container for me to have later. Boy I miss those days now. She also used to make something and she would potato chips on the top I don’t remember what it was.

I wish I could back in time and taste those dishes again. It’s funny how you think of things sometime. I miss my mom everyday there’s no one that could ever take her place. I wish I could talk to her again even with dementia. Just to hear her voice. She was such a special and wonderful person. I know I’m a lot like her in my ways. Just really missing my mom today.

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Heaven

I wrote this post a few days ago. My mom and dad are both gone now and I miss them everyday. It’s very hard and I struggle with it. I know they are better off now but I miss them so much. Some day I will see them again and it will be a joyous reunion. I hope you like this poem because I am trying to continue with this blog and try to write my best. Have a great day and enjoy every minute of it.

Dear Jesus

Please I hope

The first thing

I see when I get to Heaven

Is my mom and dad

I miss them so much

They were the best parents

Anyone could have

I wish they were here with me

They loved me so much and I did the same

And I pray you will take care of them

It hurts so much and it never goes away

I miss them every single day. I can’t

Believe they are not here anymore.

My dear sweet mom and dad.

See you again someday.

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Guardian Angel

My mom had dementia and I took care of her for 4 years. I don’t regret that at all but sometimes it did get over whelming. I miss her so much now. I wrote this poem back in 2019 and I thought I would share it.

Sometimes I feel

Like my moms

Guardian Angel

I was sent here

To take care of her in

Her time of need.

I don’t have wings to fly

But I’m there for her

Whenever

She needs it

I wouldn’t want it any other way

I would do it all over again

And be my mom’s Guardian

Angel.

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Thanksgiving 2021

I like to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. It truly is a special day to be thankful for all that God has given us. I’m thankful for my family and friends and for this blog to be able to share with all of you. It won’t be the same for me without both of my parents here with me but I try and do my best. I miss them so especially at the Holidays.

I’m just having the traditional Thanksgiving dinner like prob all of you.

I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Enjoy your family and friends and be thankful for everything.

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My moms Wallet

My moms wallet
I still have my moms wallet and her purse. It’s amazing to me that this would bring so much comfort to me. When I’m down I grab my moms wallet and hold it tight. I remember back when she had dementia she would sometimes go through her purse and pull out her wallet and name off everything g that was in there. She would say I have my social security card and this card and that cuz she couldn’t remember. And to be honest it used to drive my kind of nuts but now that I think k back I would give anything to have my mom do that. It’s so funny now that she’s gone these things bring comfort to my very soul. I guess we should all just soak up every minute that we have with somebody. Who would of thought that my moms wallet would of done that to me. I wish now I would of written little things that she did even with dementia it would of given my comfort now and forever. If only I knew. (August 22, 2021)

It’s been a while

I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.

It’s been awhile

Since I seen your smile.

Oh I wish you were here

I miss you so much

I wish I could feel your touch once again

Its so hard living with out you here

So you could give me all of your cheer

But I know it wasn’t meant to be

At least not now

But someday we will meet

Again.

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Sometimes I cry

I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️

Sometimes I cry

I miss you so much

If only I could feel your touch once again

I cry and cry

I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment

You left such a hole in my heart ♥️

That no one can fill like you

You were the best you always cared

For me from birth to the day you left.

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Blog Reflection

I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.

I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.

I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.

I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.

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Happy Easter

I wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter. It is the day that we celebrate Jesus coming alive again. I’m so thankful for that. This Easter is the first Easter without my mom. It just seems so different. I went to church I made a Easter dinner but still it just wasn’t the same. Two people who were in my life for so many years are gone. Who raised me from a infant. I miss them terribly. Grief is something that you carry with you forever. It never goes away. Some days you feel better then all of a sudden you have this thought in your mind of their smile their touch their voice and it overwhelms you. You try to go on but there’s such a hurt it’s hard to bare. I know it will get better in time but the Holidays are the worst. You just feel lost and you can’t find your way. My mom had dementia but I would give anything to see her again and tell her I love her. I started writing this blog when my mom had dementia and it helped to write. Now I feel it helps to share with all of you my grief in losing both of my parents. It helps to know that other people also share my pain. I hope In time I can get back to writing again. I miss it but I know I need time to heal. This Easter was different but it was good too. I know my mom and dad would want me to go on and share. That’s one thing they taught me to care. So hopefully soon I will be back and Sharing again but for now I’m still healing! But I hope you all have a Happy Easter. Enjoy every minute of

your family. And every day. 😀🌈☹️

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