My moms wallet
I still have my moms wallet and her purse. It’s amazing to me that this would bring so much comfort to me. When I’m down I grab my moms wallet and hold it tight. I remember back when she had dementia she would sometimes go through her purse and pull out her wallet and name off everything g that was in there. She would say I have my social security card and this card and that cuz she couldn’t remember. And to be honest it used to drive my kind of nuts but now that I think k back I would give anything to have my mom do that. It’s so funny now that she’s gone these things bring comfort to my very soul. I guess we should all just soak up every minute that we have with somebody. Who would of thought that my moms wallet would of done that to me. I wish now I would of written little things that she did even with dementia it would of given my comfort now and forever. If only I knew. (August 22, 2021)
I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.
It’s been awhile
Since I seen your smile.
Oh I wish you were here
I miss you so much
I wish I could feel your touch once again
Its so hard living with out you here
So you could give me all of your cheer
But I know it wasn’t meant to be
At least not now
But someday we will meet
Reflections of Love/CD❤️😊
I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️
Sometimes I cry
I miss you so much
If only I could feel your touch once again
I cry and cry
I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment
You left such a hole in my heart ♥️
That no one can fill like you
You were the best you always cared
For me from birth to the day you left.
Reflections of Love/CD💕❤️♥️
I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.
I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.
I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.
I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.
Reflections of Love/CD ❤️💜😊
I wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter. It is the day that we celebrate Jesus coming alive again. I’m so thankful for that. This Easter is the first Easter without my mom. It just seems so different. I went to church I made a Easter dinner but still it just wasn’t the same. Two people who were in my life for so many years are gone. Who raised me from a infant. I miss them terribly. Grief is something that you carry with you forever. It never goes away. Some days you feel better then all of a sudden you have this thought in your mind of their smile their touch their voice and it overwhelms you. You try to go on but there’s such a hurt it’s hard to bare. I know it will get better in time but the Holidays are the worst. You just feel lost and you can’t find your way. My mom had dementia but I would give anything to see her again and tell her I love her. I started writing this blog when my mom had dementia and it helped to write. Now I feel it helps to share with all of you my grief in losing both of my parents. It helps to know that other people also share my pain. I hope In time I can get back to writing again. I miss it but I know I need time to heal. This Easter was different but it was good too. I know my mom and dad would want me to go on and share. That’s one thing they taught me to care. So hopefully soon I will be back and Sharing again but for now I’m still healing! But I hope you all have a Happy Easter. Enjoy every minute of
your family. And every day. 😀🌈☹️
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This is the hardest post I have ever had to write. I started this blog 5 years ago when my mom was diagnosed with dementia and I started it to try and cope with it and to help others who might be going through the same thing. Well Saturday May 23, 2020 my moms journey with dementia ended. I’m happy she’s free again and she’s my my dad. But I miss her so. Because of the virus we can’t have a service for her to later. But I’m trying to make the best of it. I will continue this blog I really like writing and sharing. I wrote this poem just a few days before my mom passed away. I hope you like it and have a wonderful day! 😊
How can I say goodbye to the person
Who gave life to me my mother, my friend
My help my protector
The person who has been with me my entire life from birth to now.
I don’t want to say Goodbye mom I love you so much I wish I could feel your sweet touch again if only for a moment.
But I know you have to go so I’m not going to stop you But I will miss you so much and I will never forget you and you will always be in my heart
And I know one day I will see you again
Til that time make sure you tell dad I love him too and miss him and love him too !
Till we meet again My Sweet Mama! 💜
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I wrote this poem. I hope you like it. Have a great day!
I just want to be me
all I can do is try
my very best and
not worry about
all the rest
seasons come and
But I always
stay the same!
no matter what
There’s nothing else
I can do is put
fully in you
to make it
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I wrote this poem. I like writing it helps me to cope with the every day stresses that we all face. Have a wonderful day! 😊
Know what’s going
To happen on
Only you know
What we think
Even before we do
You put those words
In our hearts
Only you can
See inside of us!
Only you can do that
To show us the way
For us! 😊🌈
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I haven’t been on in a week or so. It’s been very busy around here lately. My dad had To go to the hospital last week by ambulance and he had to stay for three days. He had a relapse from his copd. He is doing much better now. I had to spend a few days at my mom’s which can be a challenge.
I have been thinking about where this blog is taking me. I have been thinking about moving to WordPress.org and maybe monetize. I’m not quite sure on how to go about it. Does anybody have any thoughts on this. I’ve been with WordPress.com for almost two years now I just feel like I need a change. I’ve enjoyed doing this blog and I’ve enjoyed all your posts. I hope you have enjoyed my blog. I will continue with my journey. Have a great day! 😀🌼
Reflections of Love/CD🌼😀
Sometimes we try so hard and it feels like we hit a brick wall but we make it through. Right now it feels like I’m doing that. My mom is not doing to good and it’s very frustrating. We took her to the doctor and she didn’t remember my name which is very hard to take in and she is getting progressively worse Day by day. Please can you please just pray for strength for my dad and my family ! I would appreciate it very much! I know God is in control but it’s very hard. I wrote this poem have a great day!😊
I try and try
And it ain’t no lie.
I wish it was easier
It’s a uphill battle
And it makes me
Scream and shout!
All these things
Come against me
I just want to be
Set free from
Stress and feel
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