My moms Wallet

My moms wallet
I still have my moms wallet and her purse. It’s amazing to me that this would bring so much comfort to me. When I’m down I grab my moms wallet and hold it tight. I remember back when she had dementia she would sometimes go through her purse and pull out her wallet and name off everything g that was in there. She would say I have my social security card and this card and that cuz she couldn’t remember. And to be honest it used to drive my kind of nuts but now that I think k back I would give anything to have my mom do that. It’s so funny now that she’s gone these things bring comfort to my very soul. I guess we should all just soak up every minute that we have with somebody. Who would of thought that my moms wallet would of done that to me. I wish now I would of written little things that she did even with dementia it would of given my comfort now and forever. If only I knew. (August 22, 2021)

It’s been a while

I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.

It’s been awhile

Since I seen your smile.

Oh I wish you were here

I miss you so much

I wish I could feel your touch once again

Its so hard living with out you here

So you could give me all of your cheer

But I know it wasn’t meant to be

At least not now

But someday we will meet

Again.

Reflections of Love/CD❤️😊

Sometimes I cry

I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️

Sometimes I cry

I miss you so much

If only I could feel your touch once again

I cry and cry

I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment

You left such a hole in my heart ♥️

That no one can fill like you

You were the best you always cared

For me from birth to the day you left.

Reflections of Love/CD💕❤️♥️

Blog Reflection

I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.

I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.

I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.

I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.

Reflections of Love/CD ❤️💜😊

Happy Easter

I wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter. It is the day that we celebrate Jesus coming alive again. I’m so thankful for that. This Easter is the first Easter without my mom. It just seems so different. I went to church I made a Easter dinner but still it just wasn’t the same. Two people who were in my life for so many years are gone. Who raised me from a infant. I miss them terribly. Grief is something that you carry with you forever. It never goes away. Some days you feel better then all of a sudden you have this thought in your mind of their smile their touch their voice and it overwhelms you. You try to go on but there’s such a hurt it’s hard to bare. I know it will get better in time but the Holidays are the worst. You just feel lost and you can’t find your way. My mom had dementia but I would give anything to see her again and tell her I love her. I started writing this blog when my mom had dementia and it helped to write. Now I feel it helps to share with all of you my grief in losing both of my parents. It helps to know that other people also share my pain. I hope In time I can get back to writing again. I miss it but I know I need time to heal. This Easter was different but it was good too. I know my mom and dad would want me to go on and share. That’s one thing they taught me to care. So hopefully soon I will be back and Sharing again but for now I’m still healing! But I hope you all have a Happy Easter. Enjoy every minute of

your family. And every day. 😀🌈☹️

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My Mom 💕💜

This is the hardest post I have ever had to write. I started this blog 5 years ago when my mom was diagnosed with dementia and I started it to try and cope with it and to help others who might be going through the same thing. Well Saturday May 23, 2020 my moms journey with dementia ended. I’m happy she’s free again and she’s my my dad. But I miss her so. Because of the virus we can’t have a service for her to later. But I’m trying to make the best of it. I will continue this blog I really like writing and sharing. I wrote this poem just a few days before my mom passed away. I hope you like it and have a wonderful day! 😊

How can I say goodbye to the person

Who gave life to me my mother, my friend

My help my protector

The person who has been with me my entire life from birth to now.

I don’t want to say Goodbye mom I love you so much I wish I could feel your sweet touch again if only for a moment.

But I know you have to go so I’m not going to stop you But I will miss you so much and I will never forget you and you will always be in my heart

And I know one day I will see you again

Til that time make sure you tell dad I love him too and miss him and love him too !

Till we meet again My Sweet Mama! 💜

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Just me

I wrote this poem.  I hope you like it.  Have a great day!

I just want to be me

that’s it!

all I can do is try

my very best and

not worry about

all the rest

seasons come and

seasons go!

But I always

stay the same!

no matter what

There’s nothing else

I can do is put

my trust

fully in you

to make it

through!

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Only you

I wrote this poem. I like writing it helps me to cope with the every day stresses that we all face. Have a wonderful day! 😊

Only you

Know what’s going

To happen on

Another day!

Only you know

What we think

Even before we do

You put those words

In our hearts

Only you can

See inside of us!

Only you can do that

To show us the way

To go

Only you

Can do

That

For us! 😊🌈

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Blog Reflection

I haven’t been on in a week or so.  It’s been very busy around here lately.  My dad had To go  to the hospital last week by ambulance and he had to stay for three days.  He had a relapse from his copd.  He is doing much better now.  I had to spend a few days at my mom’s which can be a challenge.

I have been thinking about where this blog is taking me.  I have been thinking about moving to WordPress.org and maybe monetize.  I’m not quite sure on how to go about it.  Does anybody have any thoughts on this.  I’ve been with WordPress.com for almost two years now I just feel like I need a change.  I’ve enjoyed doing this blog and I’ve enjoyed all your posts.  I hope you have enjoyed my blog.  I will continue with my journey.  Have a great day!  😀🌼

Reflections of Love/CD🌼😀

 

 

Try

Sometimes we try so hard and it feels like we hit a brick wall but we make it through. Right now it feels like I’m doing that. My mom is not doing to good and it’s very frustrating. We took her to the doctor and she didn’t remember my name which is very hard to take in and she is getting progressively worse Day by day. Please can you please just pray for strength for my dad and my family ! I would appreciate it very much! I know God is in control but it’s very hard. I wrote this poem have a great day!😊

I try and try

And it ain’t no lie.

I wish it was easier

Sometimes.

It’s a uphill battle

And it makes me

Scream and shout!

All these things

Come against me

I just want to be

Set free from

All this!

Stress and feel

Like I’m

Truly blessed

Somehow!?❤️😊

Copyright: Reflections of Love/CD 😊❤️