Blog Reflection

I wanted to write to you to say I’ve currently been very busy looking for a job. I’m finding it’s a little harder when you get older. As Mother day approaches I think about my mom and it’s hard here not being here esp on Mothers Day. I’m thankful I had her all the years I did but it’s just not the same. I can’t believe it will be two years next month that my moms been gone. Oh how I miss her so. I miss not being able to share with her. I have her pictures that I can look at but I miss her voice and the comfort you feel just being with your mom. It’s a bond so special. There’s nothing like it. Dementia took a lot of years away from her. I would give anything to have all of that back. Even though it was very hard sometimes I just cherish the memories and all the time I had to spend with my mom and dad.

My dad was a trooper through it all with my mom. He never complained about any of it and I know it was very hard on him too but he never let it bother him. He took it all in stride everyday watching my mom disappear every day. He did break down one day when my mom looked at him and she said who are you . She didn’t recognize him and this just broke his heart. My dad cried that day and I felt so bad. He never got upset with her either she would do some bizarre things sometime but it never bothered him. He would just agree with her and let her be. To be honest he did better than me cuz sometimes I would get upset with her. But not him. He would just go with it. I give my dad a lot of credit for that.

I guess I just need to cherish those special times. Even though through dementia you can make it through.

I guess I just wanted to share. Have a good day and enjoy every minute of it. 😊❤️

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Missing my mom today

I know today I’ve been missing my mom and some of the tasty things she used to make. Like peppers and egg sandwiches and home made chicken soup. I never could make it just like hers believe me I have tried. She would sometimes make it and even when I wasn’t living home anymore she would put some in a container for me to have later. Boy I miss those days now. She also used to make something and she would potato chips on the top I don’t remember what it was.

I wish I could back in time and taste those dishes again. It’s funny how you think of things sometime. I miss my mom everyday there’s no one that could ever take her place. I wish I could talk to her again even with dementia. Just to hear her voice. She was such a special and wonderful person. I know I’m a lot like her in my ways. Just really missing my mom today.

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Heaven

I wrote this post a few days ago. My mom and dad are both gone now and I miss them everyday. It’s very hard and I struggle with it. I know they are better off now but I miss them so much. Some day I will see them again and it will be a joyous reunion. I hope you like this poem because I am trying to continue with this blog and try to write my best. Have a great day and enjoy every minute of it.

Dear Jesus

Please I hope

The first thing

I see when I get to Heaven

Is my mom and dad

I miss them so much

They were the best parents

Anyone could have

I wish they were here with me

They loved me so much and I did the same

And I pray you will take care of them

It hurts so much and it never goes away

I miss them every single day. I can’t

Believe they are not here anymore.

My dear sweet mom and dad.

See you again someday.

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It’s been a while

I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.

It’s been awhile

Since I seen your smile.

Oh I wish you were here

I miss you so much

I wish I could feel your touch once again

Its so hard living with out you here

So you could give me all of your cheer

But I know it wasn’t meant to be

At least not now

But someday we will meet

Again.

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Just me

I wrote this poem.  I hope you like it.  Have a great day!

I just want to be me

that’s it!

all I can do is try

my very best and

not worry about

all the rest

seasons come and

seasons go!

But I always

stay the same!

no matter what

There’s nothing else

I can do is put

my trust

fully in you

to make it

through!

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Quitting

I wrote this poem a few years ago and I thought I would share it today with all of you!  Sometimes we feel like giving up but we have to keep going and trying.  I hope you have a great day!

I’m not quitting

I’m going to run

this race to the

finish!

With Gods help I’m

going to make it!

I’ve had some hard times

and things that come against me

but that will only make me

stronger in the end.

God has put a special gift inside

of me and I’m going to

use it for his glory.

I won’t take any less anymore.

For greater is he that is in

me than he that is in the world.

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Where do I go?

I wrote this poem and I hope you like it.   Sometimes time just goes so fast we can’t keep up.  I wish it would slow down just a little.  Have a awesome day!

Where do I go from

here?

I got words to speak

and

feelings to be heard!

That just bring me to more tears!

Its amazing how crazy

the

time flies by!

Can’t even catch a breath!

and it’s another

Day!

 

Try

Sometimes we try so hard and it feels like we hit a brick wall but we make it through. Right now it feels like I’m doing that. My mom is not doing to good and it’s very frustrating. We took her to the doctor and she didn’t remember my name which is very hard to take in and she is getting progressively worse Day by day. Please can you please just pray for strength for my dad and my family ! I would appreciate it very much! I know God is in control but it’s very hard. I wrote this poem have a great day!😊

I try and try

And it ain’t no lie.

I wish it was easier

Sometimes.

It’s a uphill battle

And it makes me

Scream and shout!

All these things

Come against me

I just want to be

Set free from

All this!

Stress and feel

Like I’m

Truly blessed

Somehow!?❤️😊

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Feeling stuck

Yesterday I went to my parents house like I do every day and I got stuck in their driveway in the snow.  It got me very frustrated to say the least.  It took a while but two neighbors came out and helped me get out.  I think that is some what  like our lives.  We keep spinning our tires just like a car and we feel like we can’t go nowhere.  At least that’s the way I feel sometimes.  It gets to be to much and we just give up.  But if we keep going there will be a way out!  I wrote this poem I hope this blog is helping someone out there.  It helps me by writing.  Have a awesome day!😊🌼

Ever feel like

Your stuck in a rut?

And you can’t get

Out?

You just keep spinning

And spinning

Around and around!

You try and try and

You don’t understand

All of his plan

That he has

In store

For you!

If you just trust in

Him!

He will

Make a way

For you

To get you

Through!🌼😊

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