I’ve been so busy I haven’t posted in a while. Between work and daily activities the time just flies by. I started working at a daycare as a pre school teacher. That is fun and I’m also in the kitchen which keeps me pretty busy. I have worked in daycare for about 10 years and I love it most days. I didn’t do it for four years because I was taking care of both my parents, My mom with dementia and my dad with a lot of medical problems. But I would do it all over again. I got tiried but I wouldn’t trade those days for anything. I still miss my mom and dad everyday. I really learned a lot from that and I grew so much. It was a very hard time though but there were good days that I remember and can look back on and laugh or cry. You have to do anything you can for the people that you love. The weather here is starting to change and it’s finally getting a little warmer. That’s New York the weather is always changing. I’ve been enjoying the nice weather.
I just wanted to post something I’ve been trying to write and reflect more. So for now take care.
I wanted to write to you to say I’ve currently been very busy looking for a job. I’m finding it’s a little harder when you get older. As Mother day approaches I think about my mom and it’s hard here not being here esp on Mothers Day. I’m thankful I had her all the years I did but it’s just not the same. I can’t believe it will be two years next month that my moms been gone. Oh how I miss her so. I miss not being able to share with her. I have her pictures that I can look at but I miss her voice and the comfort you feel just being with your mom. It’s a bond so special. There’s nothing like it. Dementia took a lot of years away from her. I would give anything to have all of that back. Even though it was very hard sometimes I just cherish the memories and all the time I had to spend with my mom and dad.
My dad was a trooper through it all with my mom. He never complained about any of it and I know it was very hard on him too but he never let it bother him. He took it all in stride everyday watching my mom disappear every day. He did break down one day when my mom looked at him and she said who are you . She didn’t recognize him and this just broke his heart. My dad cried that day and I felt so bad. He never got upset with her either she would do some bizarre things sometime but it never bothered him. He would just agree with her and let her be. To be honest he did better than me cuz sometimes I would get upset with her. But not him. He would just go with it. I give my dad a lot of credit for that.
I guess I just need to cherish those special times. Even though through dementia you can make it through.
I guess I just wanted to share. Have a good day and enjoy every minute of it. 😊❤️
I know today I’ve been missing my mom and some of the tasty things she used to make. Like peppers and egg sandwiches and home made chicken soup. I never could make it just like hers believe me I have tried. She would sometimes make it and even when I wasn’t living home anymore she would put some in a container for me to have later. Boy I miss those days now. She also used to make something and she would potato chips on the top I don’t remember what it was.
I wish I could back in time and taste those dishes again. It’s funny how you think of things sometime. I miss my mom everyday there’s no one that could ever take her place. I wish I could talk to her again even with dementia. Just to hear her voice. She was such a special and wonderful person. I know I’m a lot like her in my ways. Just really missing my mom today.
I wrote this post a few days ago. My mom and dad are both gone now and I miss them everyday. It’s very hard and I struggle with it. I know they are better off now but I miss them so much. Some day I will see them again and it will be a joyous reunion. I hope you like this poem because I am trying to continue with this blog and try to write my best. Have a great day and enjoy every minute of it.
I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.
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