Thanksgiving 2021

I like to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. It truly is a special day to be thankful for all that God has given us. I’m thankful for my family and friends and for this blog to be able to share with all of you. It won’t be the same for me without both of my parents here with me but I try and do my best. I miss them so especially at the Holidays.

I’m just having the traditional Thanksgiving dinner like prob all of you.

I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Enjoy your family and friends and be thankful for everything.

Copyright://Reflections of Love/CD❤️

It’s been a while

I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.

It’s been awhile

Since I seen your smile.

Oh I wish you were here

I miss you so much

I wish I could feel your touch once again

Its so hard living with out you here

So you could give me all of your cheer

But I know it wasn’t meant to be

At least not now

But someday we will meet

Again.

Reflections of Love/CD❤️😊

Sometimes I cry

I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️

Sometimes I cry

I miss you so much

If only I could feel your touch once again

I cry and cry

I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment

You left such a hole in my heart ♥️

That no one can fill like you

You were the best you always cared

For me from birth to the day you left.

Reflections of Love/CD💕❤️♥️

Blog Reflection

I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.

I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.

I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.

I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.

Reflections of Love/CD ❤️💜😊

Wonder

Some days are very hard when you have two parents who need you.  But I wouldn’t trade it for anything.  I know I’m doing the right thing for now.  It helps me to share and write.

Have a wonderful day.

I wonder

How my mom is?

How my dad is?

It feels like I go

Around and around

I wonder

How they are?

They are both sick and

In pain!

I’m just their

Daughter!

What can I do?

All I can do is

Pray and hope!

They are ok and get

Well again and

Get healed and

Get back to the way

They once were!

Reflections of Love/CD 😊🌼

 

 

How long?

I wrote this poem.  Sometimes it’s so hard to bear watching my mom go downhill everyday. So it helps me to write and share with all of you.  Today I’m raising money for Alzheimer’s called the Longest day!  Everyone can help a little.  I hope my blog helps someone out there who is facing this too.  Know that you are not alone!  Have a wonderful day!😀🌼

How long

Will you remember me?

How long will it be?

I do not know!

I only know that

I love you!

No matter what!

You are my mother

And you will

Always be!

How long

Is it going to be

Before everything changes?

I don’t even want to think

About it!

But I know I have to

Face it somehow!

But how long?

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Goodbye

I wrote this poem.  I started this blog because of my mom having dementia and Alzheimer’s and a great deal of my family has it too.  My mom is struggling right now and she has a great deal of challenges.   It helps me to write and share with all of you.  Have a great day!

How can I say goodbye

After all these years

And tears!

It’s so hard to understand

What your going through!

I love you so much mom

I would give anything to feel

Your touch again!

But if the Lord decides

He wants you

There will be nothing

That I can do!

I know it will end

Your pain!

And set you free!

But you won’t be

With me!

I will miss you

So much!

But I know I

Will feel your touch again

Sometime, somewhere!🌼😀

Copyright: Reflections of Love/CD

 

Mom

I hope you are enjoying these posts as much as I like writing them.  I hope you all have a great weekend!  Enjoy the Fall weather.  I am trying my very best.

Today I went to visit my mom and dad and I have always enoyed going over there to see them.  Now since my mom has been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease it’s not as fun anymore.  In fact it’s a little depressing for me. My mom just isn’t the same and it breaks my heart in two.  I try and be strong for my dad but inside I want to scream, cry and yell at the top of my lungs.

I miss her so much and I really miss all the good and special times that we shared together.  Now I just spend the day with the television on and I watch my mom fall in and out of consciousness.  It is very difficult to watch someone that you love go so down hill so very fast.  She once held a job, drove herself around and she always cooked and cleaned and took care of her family.  She really taught me everything I know through watching her all these years.  Now all we can do is watch her struggle.

This disease just takes everything that you have and it rips you apart.  It’s so hard to watch this take place especially when it’s someone who has been with you your whole life.  Its very devastating on you and your entire family.  My brother hasn’t seen my mom in a few months so he better prepare himself for what he is going to see. I know it’s going to be hard for him too.  He will be coming to visit on Thanksgiving.  I only have one brother.

It’s like she’s totally different not just in one way but in many.  I almost don’t want to see her because it’s so extremely difficult to take it all in.  My poor dad is so very patient with her and he is very sick most of the time too.  God bless him! My mom and dad have been married for 57 years and that’s a real accomplishment in today’s society.  I just got to take one day at a time I guess and hope and pray for the best.  That’s all I can really do.  I just hope someday they find a cure for this terrible disease.

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Guilt

I’m titling this post guilt ! Because when you have a family member that has dementia or Alzheimer’s you can feel guilty because you feel helpless when you know how much this person struggles. You also might feel like you don’t know if you are  doing enough for them. You want to be there for them as much as possible but sometimes you just can’t.  You are always thinking about them and how they are doing because you love them so much . It’s very hard sometimes to know how much to do for them .  Sometimes it feels like  you just want the time to stop so you can catch up with them. You might need more family to help out sometimes so you don’t become burned out and take a break every once in a while so you can cope in a better way. This can really help you better because you are doing something different and it helps you take your mind off of them for a while.  It’s good to do something fun maybe if it’s going for a walk in your favorite store or buying yourself a ice cream cone. Anything that gets you away for a while.