Blog Reflection

I wanted to write to you to say I’ve currently been very busy looking for a job. I’m finding it’s a little harder when you get older. As Mother day approaches I think about my mom and it’s hard here not being here esp on Mothers Day. I’m thankful I had her all the years I did but it’s just not the same. I can’t believe it will be two years next month that my moms been gone. Oh how I miss her so. I miss not being able to share with her. I have her pictures that I can look at but I miss her voice and the comfort you feel just being with your mom. It’s a bond so special. There’s nothing like it. Dementia took a lot of years away from her. I would give anything to have all of that back. Even though it was very hard sometimes I just cherish the memories and all the time I had to spend with my mom and dad.

My dad was a trooper through it all with my mom. He never complained about any of it and I know it was very hard on him too but he never let it bother him. He took it all in stride everyday watching my mom disappear every day. He did break down one day when my mom looked at him and she said who are you . She didn’t recognize him and this just broke his heart. My dad cried that day and I felt so bad. He never got upset with her either she would do some bizarre things sometime but it never bothered him. He would just agree with her and let her be. To be honest he did better than me cuz sometimes I would get upset with her. But not him. He would just go with it. I give my dad a lot of credit for that.

I guess I just need to cherish those special times. Even though through dementia you can make it through.

I guess I just wanted to share. Have a good day and enjoy every minute of it. 😊❤️

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Missing my mom today

I know today I’ve been missing my mom and some of the tasty things she used to make. Like peppers and egg sandwiches and home made chicken soup. I never could make it just like hers believe me I have tried. She would sometimes make it and even when I wasn’t living home anymore she would put some in a container for me to have later. Boy I miss those days now. She also used to make something and she would potato chips on the top I don’t remember what it was.

I wish I could back in time and taste those dishes again. It’s funny how you think of things sometime. I miss my mom everyday there’s no one that could ever take her place. I wish I could talk to her again even with dementia. Just to hear her voice. She was such a special and wonderful person. I know I’m a lot like her in my ways. Just really missing my mom today.

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Heaven

I wrote this post a few days ago. My mom and dad are both gone now and I miss them everyday. It’s very hard and I struggle with it. I know they are better off now but I miss them so much. Some day I will see them again and it will be a joyous reunion. I hope you like this poem because I am trying to continue with this blog and try to write my best. Have a great day and enjoy every minute of it.

Dear Jesus

Please I hope

The first thing

I see when I get to Heaven

Is my mom and dad

I miss them so much

They were the best parents

Anyone could have

I wish they were here with me

They loved me so much and I did the same

And I pray you will take care of them

It hurts so much and it never goes away

I miss them every single day. I can’t

Believe they are not here anymore.

My dear sweet mom and dad.

See you again someday.

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Guardian Angel

My mom had dementia and I took care of her for 4 years. I don’t regret that at all but sometimes it did get over whelming. I miss her so much now. I wrote this poem back in 2019 and I thought I would share it.

Sometimes I feel

Like my moms

Guardian Angel

I was sent here

To take care of her in

Her time of need.

I don’t have wings to fly

But I’m there for her

Whenever

She needs it

I wouldn’t want it any other way

I would do it all over again

And be my mom’s Guardian

Angel.

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Thanksgiving 2021

I like to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. It truly is a special day to be thankful for all that God has given us. I’m thankful for my family and friends and for this blog to be able to share with all of you. It won’t be the same for me without both of my parents here with me but I try and do my best. I miss them so especially at the Holidays.

I’m just having the traditional Thanksgiving dinner like prob all of you.

I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Enjoy your family and friends and be thankful for everything.

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Waiting

One of the hardest things we do is wait. I’ve been waiting on getting ready to start working on my new job. Sometimes it’s frustrating but I do the best I can. I wrote this poem this morning. I hope you like it. Have a wonderful day !

Waiting waiting

That is the hardest part

It seeps right down to your heart ♥️

Let me go on and on

I’m trying to be calm

But it feels like forever

And it’s never going to end

But then you get that call or text

And it ends for you

And the only thing that you can do is

Tbank God

For his faithfulness

To see you through.

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Our dog Belsie

We got a Yorker on December 31st 2012 because my daughter Cheryl really wanted a dog. She was just a puppy all those years ago. We lost her on September 1st and I miss her so much. I wrote this poem. When you lose a pet it really hurts they become part of your family.

It’s ok to cry

And I’m not going to lie

I miss her everyday even

Though she was just a dog.

She meant so much to me

Her name was Bell

And she could tell

When I was upset she would come

Sit with me to help me feel better

I loved her so much I wish I could feel

Her love once again

But she’s gone now

And some how I have to live

Without my

Dear sweet Belsie!

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