Goodbye

I haven’t been on here much lately. Just trying to get over the lost of both of my parents in such a short time. I miss them more than anything. I’m trying to go day by day but it’s so hard.

I spent everyday at their house for the last four years so it’s very difficult to know what to do now. Right now I’m in the process of going through all of their stuff and selling their trailer that they lived in for 35 years. It’s really a major task and it brings up so many memories too. You never know what is like to you actually have to go through it. I had a sale this past weekend and I got rid of some things it’s just so difficult. There’s no way to make it easier.

I think about them everyday. My mom had dementia but I still miss her. I didn’t even get to say goodbye to her in a proper way! I miss her smile and her laugh and she was always looking out for me. She was a great mom and my dad was too. I’m so thankful I had amazing parents that always put me first. They would do anything for you all you would have to do is ask and they would be there. For this I’m forever grateful. Maybe I didn’t have everything in the material stuff but I had parents that loved me and I was so honored to take care of them too the best that I could.

My mom eventually had to go into a nursing home because I was physically and emotionally exhausted but I visited her everyday or every other day that I could. I know that was the best for her. But when this virus hit I didn’t get to visit her at all for 3 months. I did talk to her on the phone but it just wasn’t the same. I know she missed me being with her and I missed 3 months with her . And I think she just gave up. She fell and broke her hip at the very end and then she got the virus and that was the end. I didn’t get to be by her side I didn’t even get to tell her I loved her. She just went and that was that. It wasn’t fair that had to happen.

But at least I know her and my dad are together again after 60 years here on this earth. For that I am forever grateful and I will never regret anything. I hope through this blog I can help someone who might know someone who has dementia or someone who just needs someone to tell that it’s going to be ok. It will be worth it to me if only one person is helped in some way. Have a wonderful day and enjoy life.

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Blog Reflection

It’s been 6 weeks since my mom passed away. I miss her very much. It’s so different now that she’s not here. I’ve been trying to stay busy so I don’t think about it as much. The days just seem to run together I was so consumed with my mom and dad I forgot how to take care of me. I don’t regret taking care of them I’m glad I spent so much time with them because I can never get that back. I miss them so much it hurts to even write this.

We still haven’t had a memorial service for my mom hopefully soon because it will give me some type of closure to this journey. I know it will happen soon and it to will be a distant memory. I hope I have helped someone who is also on this journey with dementia because that would be a goal that I have accomplished through this blog. I know this road hasn’t been easy for me but I wouldn’t change any of it. At least my mom and dad are together once again. Their anniversary is July 22 and this year would of been their 61st year. Now I think that’s quite a accomplishment and now they can celebrate together in heaven. I will celebrate also with them. And one day we will all be together again. I love and miss you my sweet mom and dad! ❤️🌈💜

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My Mom 💕💜

This is the hardest post I have ever had to write. I started this blog 5 years ago when my mom was diagnosed with dementia and I started it to try and cope with it and to help others who might be going through the same thing. Well Saturday May 23, 2020 my moms journey with dementia ended. I’m happy she’s free again and she’s my my dad. But I miss her so. Because of the virus we can’t have a service for her to later. But I’m trying to make the best of it. I will continue this blog I really like writing and sharing. I wrote this poem just a few days before my mom passed away. I hope you like it and have a wonderful day! 😊

How can I say goodbye to the person

Who gave life to me my mother, my friend

My help my protector

The person who has been with me my entire life from birth to now.

I don’t want to say Goodbye mom I love you so much I wish I could feel your sweet touch again if only for a moment.

But I know you have to go so I’m not going to stop you But I will miss you so much and I will never forget you and you will always be in my heart

And I know one day I will see you again

Til that time make sure you tell dad I love him too and miss him and love him too !

Till we meet again My Sweet Mama! 💜

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Panidemic 2020 Blog Post

Like most of you I’m kind of stuck in my house. It really changes your perspective on life and how fragile it is. After this I will never take for granted anything. Like just going out to get groceries again. Now if you dare go out you have to wear a mask and gloves and when you get home you have to go right to the sink and wash your hands. It has taught me to value everything I have cuz it can be taken so quickly.

It’s very hard but it’s not as bad as some people who have lost their love ones to this terrible disease so I’m thankful to God for that. All my family are ok so I’m very thankful for that.

The hardest part of this whole thing has been not being able to see my mom. I haven’t seen her since March 9th and its been very difficult. I’ve video chatted and talked with her on the phone but that’s not the same as actually seeing her. I miss her so and I miss my dad too who passed away last October. I’m trying to get through all of this like all of you.

I hope you are all safe and secure and I hope this comes to a end soon. For now that’s all be thankful for everyday that God gives us and never take life for granted again.

Take Care. Love to you all.

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Dementia daughter

I am a dementia daughter

My mom has dementia and I am her

Daughter

Even though she doesn’t know it

It’s been a journey like no other

I wouldn’t wish it on anyone

To see your own mom getting

Worse and worse by the day.

And all you can do is sit back and watch

Her fade away

More and more

It tares your heart out to see the one

Who you always depended on change

So severely you don’t even know

Who they  are anymore that nothing they says

Makes any sense at all just like a two year old just gibberish

It’s devastating enough to take

Your breath away!

All you want to do is scream cry til you can’t anymore

And all you want is to stop and let you off this

Rollercoaster that you’ve been on for

So long!

That’s a dementia daughter!

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Forgotten ones

I wrote this poem. My mom is in a nursing home and I visit with her quite often. When I visit the people there look so sad because hardly any of their family visits them. Have a great day!

Forgotten ones

These are the people

That need us the most

They are our fathers, mothers

Sisters, brothers

But they have been placed

Like they were erased

Nobody comes to

Visit them.

You can see it on their face

The loneliness and pain

All they want is for someone

To love them and to show

Them they care.

All they might need is a smile.

These are the forgotten ones.

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Pieces

I wrote this poem. My dad passed away about 3 months ago and it’s been very difficult on me. My moms in a nursing home and I can go visit her but it’s not the same anymore. I’m trying my best for her so it helps me to write and share. I hope you like it. Have a great day.😊

How do I pick up

The broken pieces

To my heart

It’s shattered in a million pieces.

I don’t know where to start

My dad is gone now and

My mom has no mind

Left to even know who I am

It’s very hard to understand

All the things that are important

To hug and tell the people that you love

How you feel!

All you can do is try and go on

Without them.

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Less chair

My dads been gone two months today! I still miss him very much. It still doesn’t seem possible to me that he’s gone but he is and I got to get used of it ! This Christmas will be very hard cuz this will be my first Christmas without my dad. My mom is in the nursing home and she can’t come out because her health isn’t that good so it’s going to be a very different day for me! Cherish all your loved ones cuz you never know how long they will be here. I wrote this poem. I hope you all have Happy Holidays! Thank you for reading my blog!

There will be one

Less chair

This year even

When there’s cheer!

It won’t be the same

Without you!

It will never be the

Same again!

We will try and go on

Without you!

But it will be blue

No matter what we do!

We all miss you so

Much!

And wish we could have

Just one more touch

With you!

My sweet dad!

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My dad

I’m very sorry to tell you but I’m dad passed away on October 13th! I miss him everyday and it’s very hard. These past few weeks have been a roller coaster ride but I made it through. My mom is still hanging on she’s now in a nursing home and I go visit her just about every day! I’m so thankful that I got to spend a lot of time with my dad and my mom as I did. I miss him very much and I wrote this poem.

How do I say good bye

To a guy

Who has been with me my

Whole life?

The guy who helped me ride my bike

Drive a car for the first time

The guy who walked me into school

For the very first time

My dad

He’s gone now and it’s so hard

To understand it all

I got to try and get by

I love him so much and I

Wish I would of told him

More

Cuz now it’s to late to tell him

All the things I should of

He will live in my heart forever

My dad! ❤️💕

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The Fall

I haven’t been on here much so I thought I would come on and tell you how things are going. I love the fall it’s my favorite time of year the air starts getting crisp and the leaves start changing! My mom is not doing to good. It’s a daily struggle to try and take care of her. It is a very challenging thing for sure but Iv been trying my very best. That’s all I can do right now. Please if you could say a short prayer for my family because it’s very hard. I appreciate it so much! Have a wonderful day and enjoy all you can ! 😊🌈

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