Goodbye

I haven’t been on here much lately. Just trying to get over the lost of both of my parents in such a short time. I miss them more than anything. I’m trying to go day by day but it’s so hard.

I spent everyday at their house for the last four years so it’s very difficult to know what to do now. Right now I’m in the process of going through all of their stuff and selling their trailer that they lived in for 35 years. It’s really a major task and it brings up so many memories too. You never know what is like to you actually have to go through it. I had a sale this past weekend and I got rid of some things it’s just so difficult. There’s no way to make it easier.

I think about them everyday. My mom had dementia but I still miss her. I didn’t even get to say goodbye to her in a proper way! I miss her smile and her laugh and she was always looking out for me. She was a great mom and my dad was too. I’m so thankful I had amazing parents that always put me first. They would do anything for you all you would have to do is ask and they would be there. For this I’m forever grateful. Maybe I didn’t have everything in the material stuff but I had parents that loved me and I was so honored to take care of them too the best that I could.

My mom eventually had to go into a nursing home because I was physically and emotionally exhausted but I visited her everyday or every other day that I could. I know that was the best for her. But when this virus hit I didn’t get to visit her at all for 3 months. I did talk to her on the phone but it just wasn’t the same. I know she missed me being with her and I missed 3 months with her . And I think she just gave up. She fell and broke her hip at the very end and then she got the virus and that was the end. I didn’t get to be by her side I didn’t even get to tell her I loved her. She just went and that was that. It wasn’t fair that had to happen.

But at least I know her and my dad are together again after 60 years here on this earth. For that I am forever grateful and I will never regret anything. I hope through this blog I can help someone who might know someone who has dementia or someone who just needs someone to tell that it’s going to be ok. It will be worth it to me if only one person is helped in some way. Have a wonderful day and enjoy life.

Copyright:/.Reflections of Love/CD 😊❤️🌈

4 thoughts on “Goodbye

  1. writerwannabe763 August 17, 2020 / 4:46 pm

    It must have been so difficult not to be able to see your Mom…I believe though that your love for her and hers for you remained in her memory and heart… Love covers all ! Hope you feel the Lord very close right now in the time of grieving… take care ! Diane xx

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  2. thechickengrandma August 19, 2020 / 1:25 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. I totally understand about how hard it is with a loved one in a nursing home at this time. My in-laws are in one at this time and we cannot see them except through the window. Their phone doesn’t work as they have been moved to a different wing and the facility will not allow a phone tech in to make it work. It is so hard watching them go downhill an to know how much they miss physical contact with their family.

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