Reflections of Love ❤️

I hope you are enjoying these posts as much as I like writing them.  I hope you all have a great weekend!  Enjoy the Fall weather.  I am trying my very best.

Today I went to visit my mom and dad and I have always enoyed going over there to see them.  Now since my mom has been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease it’s not as fun anymore.  In fact it’s a little depressing for me. My mom just isn’t the same and it breaks my heart in two.  I try and be strong for my dad but inside I want to scream, cry and yell at the top of my lungs.

I miss her so much and I really miss all the good and special times that we shared together.  Now I just spend the day with the television on and I watch my mom fall in and out of consciousness.  It is very difficult to watch someone that you love go so down hill so very fast.  She once held a job, drove herself around and she always cooked and cleaned and took care of her family.  She really taught me everything I know through watching her all these years.  Now all we can do is watch her struggle.

This disease just takes everything that you have and it rips you apart.  It’s so hard to watch this take place especially when it’s someone who has been with you your whole life.  Its very devastating on you and your entire family.  My brother hasn’t seen my mom in a few months so he better prepare himself for what he is going to see. I know it’s going to be hard for him too.  He will be coming to visit on Thanksgiving.  I only have one brother.

It’s like she’s totally different not just in one way but in many.  I almost don’t want to see her because it’s so extremely difficult to take it all in.  My poor dad is so very patient with her and he is very sick most of the time too.  God bless him! My mom and dad have been married for 57 years and that’s a real accomplishment in today’s society.  I just got to take one day at a time I guess and hope and pray for the best.  That’s all I can really do.  I just hope someday they find a cure for this terrible disease.

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