Today is my mom’s birthday even though she really don’t remember it! I started this blog because I wanted to share about my experiences and challenges that we face because of Alzheimer’s disease! I hope I can help someone else who might be facing this also! I wrote this poem! Have a great day!
Today I really feel like giving up my blog. I know all of you have felt the same way at some point in time. I really hope I am helping someone out there who may be struggling. To be honest I haven’t been feeling very good and I don’t know what is going on. So I’m trying to do my very best. I just started this and I still have a lot of work to do to better this. I have a great deal of questions. I really hope you are enjoying my posts! Any suggestions you have would be appreciated. I wrote this poem and I hope you like it. I really enjoy sharing with all of you! I guess I just got to keep moving forward!😊🌼
This poem is about my best friend Tracy who died two years ago . We had such a special friendship together and I still miss her everyday. Maybe you can relate and cherish those relationships with your best friend. Have a wonderful weekend.
I wrote this poem a couple of years ago. Sometimes we feel like we are alone but God never leaves us or forsakes us. I was going through a lot in my life and felt very lonely and upset. Maybe you can relate. I hope it helps someone out there. Have a great day!
This has been a long time
To see you shine
Where are you ?
Your there somewhere
I got to trust
In you to
Help me through
I know you can do
All that you say
Cuz with you
There’s a way!
To trust in you
Trust in you
Even when I don’t see
Your there carrying me
Along the way!
Trust in the Lord with all they heart lean not on Thy own understanding acknowledge him and he shall direct they paths.
I wrote this poem. My mom has Alzheimer’s disease and it’s so hard to think about one day she might not no who I am. So I wrote this with tears running down my face. I pray for her healing ! I hope this helps someone out there who also is facing this with a friend or family member! Have a great weekend.
Today I thought I would write about how you think my blog is going with you. I hope you are enjoying my posts as much as I am. I’ve enjoyed sharing with you and I’ve really enjoyed reading all of your posts too. I thought I would ask if you like this blog as much as I do writing them?
I’m really new to this so I want to make sure if I’m doing a good job at this is all very new to me. So I thought I would ask you your input on how you think I’m doing? I would like to get your feedback whether good or bad ? I want to do the best for everyone. If I can help one person than it will be worth it.
I am looking forward to the Christmas season and I am awaiting the arrival of my new grand daughter any day now. So please keep my daughter Becca in your prayers. I appreciate all of you so very much. I hope you all have a wonderful day.😊
I hope your enjoying this blog! I have been really enjoying sharing with you. It helps me a great deal. This time of year is so busy for all of us it’s nice just to relax and write! Have a wonderful day!
Good morning! I hope you all have a fantastic day! I wrote this poem. We all need a miracle in some way whether it’s financial physical or emotional and he knows and he cares! I pray you get your miracle today! Thank you for sharing it really means a lot to me.
I wrote this poem. I hope you like it and are enjoying this blog as much as me. It really means a lot to me to be able to share with all of you! I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your families. 😊
I wrote this poem. I hope you like it. I am getting ready for Thanksgiving. My whole family’s coming to our house. So I’m going to be busy. We got snow here in New York. I hope you all have a wonderful day. 😊
I wrote this poem because I’ve told you about my mom but my dad has been with my mom through everything. And he deserves a lot of credit because he helps her so much and he is very sick himself with major health issues. I have been so blessed to have two incredible parents. I hope you like it and I hope you have a wonderful weekend. 😊
I wrote this poem. I feel like sometimes we try and figure things out and sometimes it just doesn’t work out. And we get frustrated and wonder why. I bet some on you can relate today. Have a wonderful day.😊🌼
Just when I
Think I have
Everything figured out
More things come about
Don’t know why?
But at least I
It just keeps
Going, going, going
To the very end
There is nothing
I can do
But trust in you
Along the way
There’s no more
That I can say !😊🌼
Trust in the Lord with all they heart lean not on Thy own understanding acknowledge him and he shall direct they paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
I’ve decided to write about what is going on in my life lately. I have really enjoyed writing and sharing with all of you. I hope you have enjoyed it too. I am truly grateful to all of my followers and encouragement that you have given me. It means a lot to me. I have never did anything like this before so I’m just learning.
My mom is about the same and she can still do some things. I am very grateful for that. Every day brings more challenges but we are trying our best. This disease changes from day to day. I know I have to prepare myself for things that are coming but it is very hard sometimes.
Also I have been thinking about going back to college and taking another math class and finally get my Human Services degree. It’s been such long road for me and I really want to finish this. I have been considering going into something in the medical field. I have always thought about doing something in the medical billing and coding field but I’m 51 years young and I’m just not sure what I want to do yet. It’s so hard to figure out sometimes. I have always just done childcare and worked in several pre schools over the years so this is a big change for me. There are many job opportunities out there for that so it might be a good fit for me.
Sunday we are having a baby shower for my daughter. She is having a little girl so this will be my fourth grandchild. I’m real excited and nervous for her. I have two grandsons and one grand daughter now. I love them and love being a grandma.
I just wanted to share this with you. I love blogging and I hope you are enjoying it too. Have a wonderful day. 😊🌼
I wrote this poem last year. Sometimes we don’t understand what to do and we try our best. I’ve been discovering that God has everything in his hands and he takes care of us. 😊🌼 I hope you like it and it helps someone.
I wrote this poem about a year ago when I was let go from a job. It was very unexpected but I know it was really for the best. Maybe you can relate somehow it still hurt a lot. I hope this helps someone who is hurting today.
There will be one less chair
But nobody will care
They won’t even remember that I was
It’s a shame you try your very best
But it’s never good enough
They will go on just like before
But I am hurt even though
Thanks for letting me share. It means a lot to me.
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Today I want to share with you just how frustrating it is and has been for me to look for and find employment. I have gone to I can’t tell you many interviews and I have been very disapponted. If you are facing that I know how you feel because I have been through that too. I hope this helps someone today. I wrote this poem.
Sometimes we go through things in our lives and it involves a lot of waiting. I have gone through many things and I wrote this poem one day when I was real upset because of my long wait. I hope it helps someone know that they are not alone.
Sometimes I want to cry
But at least I have tried
So many times
Im not giving in even though
I’ve been through so much
I know you will answer with just sweet
You go before us and make our paths straight
Even though we have to wait.
Wait on the Lord be of good courage and he shall strengthen your heart wait I say on the Lord. Psalms 27:14
I hope you are enjoying these posts as much as I like writing them. I hope you all have a great weekend! Enjoy the Fall weather. I am trying my very best.
Today I went to visit my mom and dad and I have always enoyed going over there to see them. Now since my mom has been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease it’s not as fun anymore. In fact it’s a little depressing for me. My mom just isn’t the same and it breaks my heart in two. I try and be strong for my dad but inside I want to scream, cry and yell at the top of my lungs.
I miss her so much and I really miss all the good and special times that we shared together. Now I just spend the day with the television on and I watch my mom fall in and out of consciousness. It is very difficult to watch someone that you love go so down hill so very fast. She once held a job, drove herself around and she always cooked and cleaned and took care of her family. She really taught me everything I know through watching her all these years. Now all we can do is watch her struggle.
This disease just takes everything that you have and it rips you apart. It’s so hard to watch this take place especially when it’s someone who has been with you your whole life. Its very devastating on you and your entire family. My brother hasn’t seen my mom in a few months so he better prepare himself for what he is going to see. I know it’s going to be hard for him too. He will be coming to visit on Thanksgiving. I only have one brother.
It’s like she’s totally different not just in one way but in many. I almost don’t want to see her because it’s so extremely difficult to take it all in. My poor dad is so very patient with her and he is very sick most of the time too. God bless him! My mom and dad have been married for 57 years and that’s a real accomplishment in today’s society. I just got to take one day at a time I guess and hope and pray for the best. That’s all I can really do. I just hope someday they find a cure for this terrible disease.
I Wrote this poem a couple of years ago. My oldest daughter Rachel was living in Nevada with her family. I didn’t see her for 4 years and it was very hard. Now she has moved back here with my grandchildren and I get to see them. That’s such a blessing now! Im sure some of you can relate! Have a great day!
Today I want to write about my best friend who passed away with a brain tumor almost 2 years ago. I still miss her very much. Maybe you have a best friend too that you would like to share about. Feel free to share about your friend.
What is a Friend?
It is someone that you care about and talk to about anything. They are with you through the good times and the bad. I have been so blessed to have a friend like this for many years. We became grandmas together when both of our daughters became pregnant at the same time. We didn’t know whether to laugh or cry!
We met many years ago when our daughters were little girls and then our friendship just grew. I even knew my friend before I met my husband of twenty years. She has been with me when I was going through some of the worst times in my life. She was always there for me. She would always say it would be ok and with her help I got through it.
There were funny times to like when she was at my front door wearing only a slip because she got locked out of her house. Boy did we laugh and laugh. (Lol) We always had something happen when we were together. We made many zoo trips together with our children. One time I remember we got a flat tire . It really isn’t funny but we had so much fun and interesting times together.
I will never forget those treasured memories. One time we went to the Greece Ridge Mall and we spent the whole day sniffing perfume. (Lol) That’s a friend when you do things together no matter what it is. It’s such a special bond. That was just us just having fun talking and sharing with each other. That’s what a true friend is. Even sitting on my front porch talking and laughing with our coffees. That was so special to me so cherish every minute you have with your friend because you never know how long that special time will last. I am saying goodbye to my best friend but those times will live in my heart forever and I will never forget her or our friendship. And I know one day we will be together again and that makes me feel good. I can’t wait for that day so we can laugh together again. 😊
Today is Columbus day and my youngest daughter is home from school and my husband Gary is home from work too. So I thought I would reflect on my blog. This is all very new to me so if anyone has any encouragement I would really appreciate it. I’m just trying to help other people who may be struggling in one way. I’m just a mother who has two grown daughters and two who live with me. I’m also a grandma to three and one more on the way in December.
Sometimes I feel like I want to do something but right now I am just staying home trying to keep myself busy. I have worked in several daycares and preschools. I have worked with all age groups. This can be a very rewarding job! I do the usual things laundry, clean the house and do the dishes. After my daughter has her baby girl in December I’m going to babysit her. I’m looking forward to that. I really can’t take a regular job right now because both of my parents have serious health problems so I like to be around when they need something. I only live five minutes from them. So it’s very convenient.
I like to write so this is great for me. I hope you keep coming back and I will try to do my very best! Please if you need anything I will try and help ! If you have any suggestions for me I hope you know you can share it! I would love to hear all of your stories too! I will share my life experiences and some poems! It’s my hope that I can help someone! I hope you are all having a great day and enjoying the beautiful fall weather.
Today is National smile day so I thought I would share with you about what a smile can mean to someone. We all need some one to smile at us every once in a while. It lets us know that someone cares about us! It feels good to smile and it makes someone else happy! I hope this blog is helping someone out there today! I’m trying my very best to share some of my life experiences to help someone who might need it! I’m trying to post 5 times a week to get into this bloggy groove. I’m new to this so I hope you bear with me. Thank you I hope you keep coming back I enjoy writing and I hope you enjoy it too.
A smile is a facial expression formed primarily by flexing the muscles at the side of the mouth.
A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. (Phyllis Diller)
Always remember to be happy because you never know who’s falling in love with your smile.(unknown)
I like to wish all of you a Happy Thanksgiving. It truly is a special day to be thankful for all that God has given us. I’m thankful for my family and friends and for this blog to be able to share with all of you. It won’t be the same for me without both of my parents here with me but I try and do my best. I miss them so especially at the Holidays.
I’m just having the traditional Thanksgiving dinner like prob all of you.
I hope you have a wonderful Holiday. Enjoy your family and friends and be thankful for everything.
One of the hardest things we do is wait. I’ve been waiting on getting ready to start working on my new job. Sometimes it’s frustrating but I do the best I can. I wrote this poem this morning. I hope you like it. Have a wonderful day !
We got a Yorker on December 31st 2012 because my daughter Cheryl really wanted a dog. She was just a puppy all those years ago. We lost her on September 1st and I miss her so much. I wrote this poem. When you lose a pet it really hurts they become part of your family.
My moms wallet
I still have my moms wallet and her purse. It’s amazing to me that this would bring so much comfort to me. When I’m down I grab my moms wallet and hold it tight. I remember back when she had dementia she would sometimes go through her purse and pull out her wallet and name off everything g that was in there. She would say I have my social security card and this card and that cuz she couldn’t remember. And to be honest it used to drive my kind of nuts but now that I think k back I would give anything to have my mom do that. It’s so funny now that she’s gone these things bring comfort to my very soul. I guess we should all just soak up every minute that we have with somebody. Who would of thought that my moms wallet would of done that to me. I wish now I would of written little things that she did even with dementia it would of given my comfort now and forever. If only I knew. (August 22, 2021)
I haven’t been on to much. I miss my mom and dad everyday. I am trying to keep writing and sharing with all of you. I wrote this poem a few weeks ago and I hope you like it. I try to share from my heart.
I’m trying to write again. It’s taken me some time but I’m starting too. I love sharing with you. I really needed time to heal I still am not great but at least I’m trying. This poem I wrote for my mom and dad. I love and miss them everyday. 😊💕❤️
Sometimes I cry
I miss you so much
If only I could feel your touch once again
I cry and cry
I miss everything about you i miss your smile I wish I could give you a hug if only for a moment
I haven’t been writing to much. May 23 marks a year since my mom passed away. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. Mother’s Day was a very hard day for me. I miss my mom so much. I guess it’s just takes time when you lose both your parents. It takes a while to get over and even though you really never get over it. I’m thankful I spent a lot of time with them and cared for them like I did. But now it just leaves such a hole in my life. Hopefully soon I can get back to writing poems and sharing my thoughts. I really needed time to process all of this. I have gone back to work. So that helps me.
I hope to continue this blog and keep sharing with you. Maybe I can help someone who is going through things that I have. That will be worth it all to me. I try to remember all the good times me and my parents shared and try to hold on and carry those with me.
I hope you will continue reading my blog so I can share with you. Grief is something we all go through there’s no beginning or end. Some days I’m fine other days I’m not. It comes and goes. I remember their voice and I miss them so much it hurts. I wish I could go back for just a minute second but I can’t do I have to go on. No matter how much it hurts. It’s painful it hurts it’s real you feel sad alone afraid and everything in between. Some days you feel guilty for not feeling sad and not feeling down because then you would know that it’s really real and it really happened and you would wake up from this nightmare. I don’t know where this is going. Maybe we can share our grief together. Maybe we can cry together because we lost someone that we love a mother, father, sister brother. Maybe we can help each other get through all of this.
I hope you all have a great day ahead. Keep pressing on. And I will do my best too. Take care.
I wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter. It is the day that we celebrate Jesus coming alive again. I’m so thankful for that. This Easter is the first Easter without my mom. It just seems so different. I went to church I made a Easter dinner but still it just wasn’t the same. Two people who were in my life for so many years are gone. Who raised me from a infant. I miss them terribly. Grief is something that you carry with you forever. It never goes away. Some days you feel better then all of a sudden you have this thought in your mind of their smile their touch their voice and it overwhelms you. You try to go on but there’s such a hurt it’s hard to bare. I know it will get better in time but the Holidays are the worst. You just feel lost and you can’t find your way. My mom had dementia but I would give anything to see her again and tell her I love her. I started writing this blog when my mom had dementia and it helped to write. Now I feel it helps to share with all of you my grief in losing both of my parents. It helps to know that other people also share my pain. I hope In time I can get back to writing again. I miss it but I know I need time to heal. This Easter was different but it was good too. I know my mom and dad would want me to go on and share. That’s one thing they taught me to care. So hopefully soon I will be back and Sharing again but for now I’m still healing! But I hope you all have a Happy Easter. Enjoy every minute of
Next week on February 6th will be my moms birthday. This will be the first birthday I won’t be celebrating with her. This is her first birthday in heaven. My mom wound if been 80 this year. I remember last year I went to her nursing home and I brought my mom a cupcake and she ate it and that made her so happy. I brought her a balloon too and she enjoyed that too. I wish I could get that day back again. I wish I could see her smile again. I feel bad that I never captured a picture of that day because that was her last birthday here with me. I just didn’t know. I guess it’s ok but this Saturday I’m going to make a cake and celebrate my mom and her life. In memory of her and the love she had for me and everyone. Then on February 22 it will be my dads birthday. This is his second birthday in heaven. I’m going to celebrate that day too. I’m going to remember my dad and how he cared for my mom so much til the very end. Even when he was sick himself he took care of her and he loved her so much. I’m going to remember him and honor him. I miss them both so much. I struggle everyday with this . I know they would want me to be happy and live for them. Some days are good other days it’s tough. I haven’t been writing as much but I’m trying to heal from everything. There really isn’t a certain amount of time to grieve. I know it’s different for everybody.
I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy working my new job and preparing for the Holidays. I can’t believe it’s been 7 months since my mom passed away. I miss her so much. It’s especially hard this year for me because this is the first year without my parents. I miss them so much and I can hardly believe it. It’s a day to day struggle but I’ve been doing fairly well. I want to continue writing my blog. I think that is what my mom and dad would want. I want to continue this journey.
I hope you will still continue to read my blog. I want to help other people who might be dealing with people with dementia and Alzheimer’s and who struggle losing their parents. So maybe I can write again and share my heart and maybe along the way help someone. I hope to write more and I hope I can share with all of you.